Today

is truly a bullshit day. I did absolutely nothing today. It makes me worried that this is how every day is going to be. I think that if every day were to be like today I'd end up killing myself. Even vivigerms went out today!! TWICE!! I'm such a loser. )= I really hate summer. This isn't even like summer for me!! Fuck summer school & fuck calculus!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Ruins my morning every Monday-Thursday. Today was like the first real lazy day of summer..it was not fun.
I'm really upset right now. I'm pissed off cus I have to deal with this bitchass mom every single fucking day & then I have this horrible _______ to talk too. -___- Like seriously, I don't even know why you're my ________ anymore. You claim to be my _______ but I can tell whose side you're really on. I guess she's just so good at playing her victim card that you couldn't help but fall for it. And for the record, you don't fucking know everything okay. I hate how you always talk with so much authority because you find these ridiculous examples to use to back up your dumb statements. & for the record, I hate how you have to use ______ as a fucking example. You're one of the few who actually know about all the shit I went through with that & all the mistakes I've made along the way & now you're gonna use that as an example against me? REALLY..like are you kidding me? You don't know how much it hurt for you to not only bring it up but to use it in that way...it was like a direct stab to my heart. It really hurt asshole. But WHATEVER. No actually not whatever, FUCK YOU MOTHERFUCKING BITCH! I don't even know how to describe what I'm feeling right now. It's like a mix between being upset/depressed/annoyed/angry.
I feel like screaming on the top of my lungs but then at the same time I feel like crawling into a little ball on my bed & crying myself a river. Dude what the hell, why am I being so gay. -____-
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Whatever. Fuck life.
P.S. there's a secret message ^^ in there. can you find it?

P.P.S
I just realized that revealing important details about yourself = allowing yourself to be vulnerable = giving away your weaknesses. What happens when you're fully exposed? I don't think that's something anybody wants to know the outcome of. & that is something I will no longer allow myself to risk.
So, Goodbye ______ ________.